[ and he appears! no longer in a maid dress. thank god. just a suit, sitting somewhere. there's just the tips of a pair of cat ears visible in his lap.
fei du's expression is inscrutable, but he gives a polite nod of his head. ]
Thank you. [ for keeping said promise. ] I'd like to hear what you have to say.
Were you aware that Froggystyle was protected by the entirety of the rest of the teams? Or that information was circulating about who was in first, second, and third place?
And you know because your team is going to lose, your points are irrelevant. We see the points here. In fact, you saw the rankings. You saw exactly how low you were.
[ now, fei du's brows start to furrow, his expression finally starting to pull into a frown. i assume you were out oocly probably AND ALSO MURDER DM DEADLINES so i will not harp on it beyond this i promise ]
The rankings were published live when you all solved that hangman game. Two days before you murdered him.
Edited (I FORGOT THAT TOO IM SORRY I PROMSIE AAA ) 2023-08-01 02:08 (UTC)
So, what I'm to understand is that you murdered Luo Wenzhou, who has done nothing but help others, who helped you after the adventure you were all on the week before, in a callous, cruel expression of violence, where you took his autonomy from him by forcing him to believe a lie with your psych that I am completely aware that you have, and then blew him to smithereens, because you panicked over a message. Not before you and your accomplice set him on fire, that is. But, of course, it got out of control, and you didn't mean to harm him that badly.
And you did it for points that become completely irrelevant, and you have no regrets because you felt like you were doing something.
Oh, I don't think you're a villain. I know what a villain looks like. You aren't one. Not even close.
I'm not painting you as anything. I'm repeating back the details of your case to you as you have just explained them to me, along with the details I've learned from your trial, your team, and from Wenzhou himself. I have several more questions, and that's why I've contacted you.
Who decided to blow him up? You or Monika? Who decided that setting him on fire wasn't enough?
[ it's an honest answer - for the record, that furrowed angry brow stays, but almost seems to relax, a little. it's severe, but not it's not cruel or furious. ]
But, I do think I deserve the truth. And the answers that I'm asking you for.
[ he'll acknowledge it, that she admitted it. it matters. ]
...The reason I went to my death without even fighting back was because I chose to. I willingly laid down my life because I agreed that I would do everything I could on the other side to help froggystyle, in exchange for their protecting Luo Wenzhou's life. At home, once, I protected him from the very thing that killed him, here, because I took the hit for him by shoving him into my car and trying to protect us both with the door. I had to look at his body and know that everything I had ever done to protect him, here and at home, failed.
When you tell me things like "I don't regret it", what you tell me is that his life was worth nothing, because it was worth no points, no advancement, no winning game. But to me, Luo Wenzhou is worth everything. He deserves so much better than what he got. Trauma and murder both leave so many more victims than just the person who gets killed, and I'm sure you know what that feels like, having been here, but I want to reiterate the consequences of the decision that the two of you made.
I understand you were under a pressure cooker. I understand that you're young, and you were afraid, and you wanted to do something. I understand that these circumstances are cruel, and strange, and maybe you panicked. But I contacted you because I think it's important that you face the details of what you did, because even though you did it under those circumstances, you still did it, and it was still utterly pointless, and it still left destruction in its wake. You can be a victim of the circumstance, but it doesn't change the fact that what was done was done.
You don't have to apologize to me, and I don't hate you. You should apologize to Kazuki, though. He's your friend.
I can tell. [ mizuki does not seem like someone who would do that totally maliciously. it was all just panic. just desperation. just violence. ] I believe you.
...It's Wenzhou's prerogative how he chooses to treat you in this. Knowing him, I imagine he'll lecture you and let it go, because he is a good, kind person. And I will try my best to do the same.
I can't forgive you, and I don't think you should be allowed to shy away from consequences. Even if throwing the bomb was a moment of panic, you still coerced him into giving up his weapons and then beat him with a pipe. That was a conscious choice that you made, that you have to live with.
[ he pauses. takes a breath. ]
...The consequences of the interpersonal are much crueler than an execution, and frankly, this justice system is a farce, and I'd rather you have to face the people you hurt over anything else here. It takes grace to own up to your mistakes. I hope if the others are angry with you, that you'll face what they have to say too as you have with me.
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... As I promised.
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fei du's expression is inscrutable, but he gives a polite nod of his head. ]
Thank you. [ for keeping said promise. ] I'd like to hear what you have to say.
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I'm not expecting anything. I'd rather you decide where you think you need to begin.
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I don't know. I didn't want it to get as bad as it did—honest. But I don't regret my decision, either.
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And those reasons are?
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So what did you do, exactly?
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The rankings were published live when you all solved that hangman game. Two days before you murdered him.
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I was still worried, okay? It didn't help that some idiot decided to send me a message implying that things were going to go really bad.
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So, what I'm to understand is that you murdered Luo Wenzhou, who has done nothing but help others, who helped you after the adventure you were all on the week before, in a callous, cruel expression of violence, where you took his autonomy from him by forcing him to believe a lie with your psych that I am completely aware that you have, and then blew him to smithereens, because you panicked over a message. Not before you and your accomplice set him on fire, that is. But, of course, it got out of control, and you didn't mean to harm him that badly.
And you did it for points that become completely irrelevant, and you have no regrets because you felt like you were doing something.
Does that sound about right?
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I'm not painting you as anything. I'm repeating back the details of your case to you as you have just explained them to me, along with the details I've learned from your trial, your team, and from Wenzhou himself. I have several more questions, and that's why I've contacted you.
Who decided to blow him up? You or Monika? Who decided that setting him on fire wasn't enough?
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[ it's an honest answer - for the record, that furrowed angry brow stays, but almost seems to relax, a little. it's severe, but not it's not cruel or furious. ]
But, I do think I deserve the truth. And the answers that I'm asking you for.
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[ ... ]
It... it was mine.
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Thank you.
[ he'll acknowledge it, that she admitted it. it matters. ]
...The reason I went to my death without even fighting back was because I chose to. I willingly laid down my life because I agreed that I would do everything I could on the other side to help froggystyle, in exchange for their protecting Luo Wenzhou's life. At home, once, I protected him from the very thing that killed him, here, because I took the hit for him by shoving him into my car and trying to protect us both with the door. I had to look at his body and know that everything I had ever done to protect him, here and at home, failed.
When you tell me things like "I don't regret it", what you tell me is that his life was worth nothing, because it was worth no points, no advancement, no winning game. But to me, Luo Wenzhou is worth everything. He deserves so much better than what he got. Trauma and murder both leave so many more victims than just the person who gets killed, and I'm sure you know what that feels like, having been here, but I want to reiterate the consequences of the decision that the two of you made.
I understand you were under a pressure cooker. I understand that you're young, and you were afraid, and you wanted to do something. I understand that these circumstances are cruel, and strange, and maybe you panicked. But I contacted you because I think it's important that you face the details of what you did, because even though you did it under those circumstances, you still did it, and it was still utterly pointless, and it still left destruction in its wake. You can be a victim of the circumstance, but it doesn't change the fact that what was done was done.
You don't have to apologize to me, and I don't hate you. You should apologize to Kazuki, though. He's your friend.
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...... I know.
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...Then, that's all I ask. Acknowledgement is a better step forward than an apology, to me.
Alright?
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... But I—I meant it. I didn't make it that bad on purpose. I just—got desperate and used it without thinking.
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I can tell. [ mizuki does not seem like someone who would do that totally maliciously. it was all just panic. just desperation. just violence. ] I believe you.
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... Okay.
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I can't forgive you, and I don't think you should be allowed to shy away from consequences. Even if throwing the bomb was a moment of panic, you still coerced him into giving up his weapons and then beat him with a pipe. That was a conscious choice that you made, that you have to live with.
[ he pauses. takes a breath. ]
...The consequences of the interpersonal are much crueler than an execution, and frankly, this justice system is a farce, and I'd rather you have to face the people you hurt over anything else here. It takes grace to own up to your mistakes. I hope if the others are angry with you, that you'll face what they have to say too as you have with me.
That's all.
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That does help. Genuinely.
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[ another pause. ]
I guess... that's it.
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Not as bad as you thought it would be?
[ the conversation, at least. ]
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I've had worse.