honkinbigteeth: (to the wolf's den)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-11 11:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ugh. the memory itself is kind of sweet to her now, but she still can't help feeling weird about mizuki having seen all of that. she hasn't had many friends her own age before, and now mizuki knows she's weird, in that she kills people and eats them sometimes. the stuff of your classic tween drama.]

...Yeah, I know. It's not even the first time I've shown people gross memories.
honkinbigteeth: (half the city sound asleep)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-11 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
You wouldn't?

[hmm, that's a little complicated. it's not that she isn't proud of who she is; she's done some growing since that memory, after all. but the drawbacks are pretty profound.]

I really didn't want to do something like that. But if I hadn't gone to a version of my story where that's who I am, I wouldn't have been able to help Mother and everyone.
honkinbigteeth: (to the wolf's den)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[oh.]

...I'm trying to. I've made mistakes before, or lost control. But the world I'm from is pretty dangerous and scary, so I think it's a good thing that I'm a little dangerous and scary, too.
honkinbigteeth: (sail past all the grasping hands)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I think so. At least - I'm strong enough to protect people who are important to me. So that's something positive about it.
honkinbigteeth: (just be prepared)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
[...she smiles a little.]

I think they do. Maybe not always 100% acceptance, because sometimes I do turn my body into a spider shaped body by breaking all my bones and growing extra ones, and they aren't so into that.
honkinbigteeth: (excited and scared)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
[...]

It's kind of weird, but also kind of useful.
honkinbigteeth: (Cappuccetto Rosso)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes it feels like it should hurt, but it doesn't.
honkinbigteeth: (with that sickening grin)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 12:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[she's very pleased mizuki likes her spider stance. she would be less pleased if she saw it, it's truly the body horror of all time.]

Yeah, we've had to fight giant spiders before, so it was handy. I can do a horse, too. Mostly I transform into a wolf, but sometimes it's handy to be flexible.
honkinbigteeth: (many beautiful things)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-12 06:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I am a werewolf! It's just that changing my body to be a wolf is more malleable than you'd think, so if I concentrate I can do other shapes, too.

[the real explanation for this is that one of her d&d classes is druid, so she has a bunch of druid forms but they're all wolf flavored.]
honkinbigteeth: (excited well)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-13 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
Really? I mean, I think it's cool, too, but a lot of people don't.
honkinbigteeth: (i should have heeded)

[personal profile] honkinbigteeth 2023-07-13 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, or they just don't like it...