[ugh. the memory itself is kind of sweet to her now, but she still can't help feeling weird about mizuki having seen all of that. she hasn't had many friends her own age before, and now mizuki knows she's weird, in that she kills people and eats them sometimes. the stuff of your classic tween drama.]
...Yeah, I know. It's not even the first time I've shown people gross memories.
[ ... huh. Mizuki doesn't think that's how she'd view it, but then again—that vision made it abundantly clear that Ylfa is hardly proud of who she is now. ]
[hmm, that's a little complicated. it's not that she isn't proud of who she is; she's done some growing since that memory, after all. but the drawbacks are pretty profound.]
I really didn't want to do something like that. But if I hadn't gone to a version of my story where that's who I am, I wouldn't have been able to help Mother and everyone.
I don't know what life is like for you outside of this game, or what you've been through, but—I always got the impression you're only doing what you feel is right.
...I'm trying to. I've made mistakes before, or lost control. But the world I'm from is pretty dangerous and scary, so I think it's a good thing that I'm a little dangerous and scary, too.
I think they do. Maybe not always 100% acceptance, because sometimes I do turn my body into a spider shaped body by breaking all my bones and growing extra ones, and they aren't so into that.
[she's very pleased mizuki likes her spider stance. she would be less pleased if she saw it, it's truly the body horror of all time.]
Yeah, we've had to fight giant spiders before, so it was handy. I can do a horse, too. Mostly I transform into a wolf, but sometimes it's handy to be flexible.
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adorabrawler) wrote2023-06-10 02:57 pm
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...Yeah, I know. It's not even the first time I've shown people gross memories.
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I wouldn't call that gross.
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[hmm, that's a little complicated. it's not that she isn't proud of who she is; she's done some growing since that memory, after all. but the drawbacks are pretty profound.]
I really didn't want to do something like that. But if I hadn't gone to a version of my story where that's who I am, I wouldn't have been able to help Mother and everyone.
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I don't know what life is like for you outside of this game, or what you've been through, but—I always got the impression you're only doing what you feel is right.
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...I'm trying to. I've made mistakes before, or lost control. But the world I'm from is pretty dangerous and scary, so I think it's a good thing that I'm a little dangerous and scary, too.
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There's nothing wrong with being a little dangerous—especially if you need it.
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I think they do. Maybe not always 100% acceptance, because sometimes I do turn my body into a spider shaped body by breaking all my bones and growing extra ones, and they aren't so into that.
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um, ]
—You can do that?
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It's kind of weird, but also kind of useful.
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That's.... probably one of the weirdest things I've heard, but I gotta admit it sounds pretty hardcore, too.
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Yeah, we've had to fight giant spiders before, so it was handy. I can do a horse, too. Mostly I transform into a wolf, but sometimes it's handy to be flexible.
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[the real explanation for this is that one of her d&d classes is druid, so she has a bunch of druid forms but they're all wolf flavored.]
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That's even cooler than the ones you see on TV.
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